

権禰宜 岡田桃子
- 2020年7月15日
- 9 分
父の帰幽
地球上で、人は刻刻と亡くなり、刻刻と生まれている。 神道では、亡くなることを「帰幽(きゆう)」と呼ぶ。幽に帰ると表現する。 幽の状態って、どういうことだろう。 私の父は五年前の七月十四日に帰幽した。父は東京都台東区谷中の酒屋の四男(六人きょうだいの末っ子)に生まれ、商社に入り、インド、リビア、イランに駐在、最後は東京の自宅で、私を含む家族三人に囲まれて亡くなった。社内結婚した母との間に娘が二人。姉は東京で生まれ、私はインドで生まれた。 メキシコで乗った車が横転してあばら骨が折れていたり、リビアで爆撃に会って消息が不明になったり、いろんな危機一髪を生き延びてきた父も、胸腺というめずらしい臓器のがんには勝てなかった。ジャストミートする抗がん剤がなく、「肺がんの薬が効かなくなった時が寿命」と、がんの専門医に言われ、いよいよその薬が効かなくなった時、父は最後の日々を東京の自宅で、妻と二人で過ごすことを望んだ。 自宅近くに「在宅ホスピス緩和ケア」を専門とするクリニックがあり、そこから医師や看護師が定期的に来て看てくださることになった。とはいえ、基本的に在宅
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